"I don't know where...I don't know how...I don't know why...but your love can make these things better".

I spent last night in the hospital. Mind you, 99% of it was in the waiting room. As I was on stage practicing for church, I went to scratch my neck and found a fairly sizeable..well, that's not true, it was quite small, but I found a lump on my neck. I immediately started to freak out, and then tried to think of the possibilities of what it could be, etc. Of course, after speaking to my Dad for a few minutes I calmed down, but I still wanted to get it checked out. Anyway, long and the short of it is my lymph gland was swollen quite largely. I just found it strange because I'd never had a swollen gland so far back up my neck before. Anyway. I'm fine.

It's hardest when I'm by myself...

I watched Walk The Line on Saturday night with my Dad. I can't be bothered writing a full review, partly because it doesn't need one, but mostly because I was at a LAN yesterday and today and I'm dead tired. In short, I loved it and I give it 4.5/5.

I want to marry Reese Witherspoon.

I find it so hard, so hard, so hard...to forgive myself for the things I've done against certain people. I try so hard to be a likeable person, to be a good person, but I always let myself down and I take others with me. What right do I have? What right do I have to hurt other people? What right do I have to make other people cry?

I wish I could be more than I am.